I have to get clearer on my motivation. There is the idea that if I write with discipline it’ll end up making me a more prolific and successful composer, and bring some money in. But that’s just all about me. There is nothing external about it, like a thought that this music will make the world %0.000000000000000000001 better. I need to connect this out to benefits that go beyond making me happy. That’s just too narrow.