I woke up early this morning and within about 30 seconds I was already trying o work out the opening for my piece. I had a few new ideas but after 4 minutes I was back to being stuck on the dead end material that was running through my head yesterday. Very frustrating!

Maybe my idea that the opening has to be a melody is wrong. Maybe it can be motivic; some texture using small sound bites. When thinking about what to write I have a hex on me – I’m thinking about getting rejected by the publisher in the first three measures.

I want to take this to the piano but it’s still too early to make that type of noise so I have to wait for at least 45 minutes, likely an hour, before I can start playing. Obsessed.